"Seven Layers of Could've Beens"

"I thought I needed you for security,
Instead I took my frustration and stabbed myself in the heart.
As a noble soldier, but I liked it.
I mean. Loved it.
I thought I needed you for security,
Rushed by all the people at my door,
I should've opened it and I felt as if I needed to.
Run away, from what I loved,
Everything.
I thought I needed you for security,
A lamp was lit by the candle,
And that's when I envisioned it.
A subtle learner.
I thought I needed you for security,
To feel safe in my own bed.
Laying between the sheets that burdens me,
A life that could've been.
I thought I needed you for security,
I'm so Glad to know that it was just a thought.
Witnessing my truth yet understanding my faith is all the security I'll ever need
Vanished without a trace lost in a haste
Of a action that can jeopardize my future.
I thought I needed you for security,
Knowing that you were securely locked in my past haunted my present
And what life I had left.
I so openly called it theft,
Stealing what matters most to me, yet dignifying yourself
In my honor.
I thought I needed,
What could have been."

Symbolically Yours, 

~Sherika